Running gets you the gold.

The truth is I’m scared of succeeding. Failing doesn’t hurt me because I haven’t gone far enough. If I were to succeed that would mean I would be at the top. Heights are only scary when you look down; I look down a lot in order to watch my footing. If I could change anything about myself it would be to stop second-guessing myself. I can tell you everything I want out of life but when it comes to getting it I come to a stand still. I hate waiting yet I find the most formal and slowest ways about getting something because of my fears. Mind you the “go getter” door is wide-open waiting for me to take my chances and get things my way.

I sit in the box by choice despite the fact that I know what’s outside the box is so much better. I rather be broke doing what I love rather than rich and stuck doing someone else’s passion but in reality its hard for me to put that into practice. Instead here I am at a stand still looking for office jobs instead of putting myself out there and being successful.

I want to thank everyone who supports me even if I won’t budge. The first step is admitting your fault. I’m trying to move but fear seems to be winning. My time is now and the fact that I know now will always be now it’s hard to get started. Maybe I need to start saying my time was yesterday. I can’t continue waiting on my dreams because my feet are moving too slow. Running gets you the gold medal.

I am my nightmare and dream. Accept who you are and use what you have to make it work. 23 years of living is nothing. You live, you learn, you conquer. Only you can save yourself. Its time to save myself.