You Live and You Learn.

I’ve never been good with timing. I think the main reason may be the fact that I do things on my time oppose to considering others who may be involved. A prime example would be when I decided to tell someone how I felt about them despite recognizing their situation at that time. I thought I was doing good but I didn’t get the response I wanted. In my mind it went like one of the final scene in Love & Basketball where Monica (Sanaa Lathan) told Quincy (Omar Epps) how she felt about him the night before he got married and he said “you still think the sun rises and sets on your ass. Well guess what, it doesn’t!” Although he didn’t say that, I was thinking it. I expected him to run to me and we trot off into the sunset. Instead I got the “You put me in a hard place. I really care for you but it’s hard for me to let go of my situation now.” *points trigger finger to me head*

For the first time EVER I was honest but didn’t consider everything. I don’t regret stepping out of my character and expressing myself but I do regret not considering what he was going through at the time. You live and you learn. It’s like ripping a Band-Aid off of your leg. It hurts at first but the irritation of it being on you is now gone.

Unfortunately its also not in my character to stick around and wait for someone to get there life together so yeah….at least I got it off my chest and it allowed me to look at my self and realize a flaw I possess. Everything happens for a reason so you should always find the bright side when things look gloomy. 

The Coldest Climate in the World....

.....the friend zone
So as some point of another we have all had an encounter with the friend zone. Be it you placed someone there or you got put there it is a place that no one wants to be in. We all have friends but the friend zone is that special place you arrive at when you like someone in the romantic sense but they only see you as a friend.Iit burns like the fire of a thousand suns because you have real, deep romantic feelings for this person. You see yourself being the only one in their life but unfortunately they don't feel the same.Tthey may even hit you with the I see you as a brother/sister. *blankstare* I'm trying to  smang it and you wanna be my sister? no ma'am and no girl. Sometimes you even only become friends with this person because you are trying to get with them.

The hardest part of the friend zone is when they find out how you feel and they kind of dismiss it. The real battle comes when they say they still wanna be friends. Why the hell would I still wanna be your friend if I know you're the one for me.I  mean you don't have to dissolve the friendship, but it may be best to pull back a bit. Unless you're in that highly addictive love phase where you can't imagine the idea of not having them around. This can also hurt you because you may pass up other potential lovers because you want this one person who doesn't want you. You find yourself going to crazy lengths to do things for them all in the name of love. You stand by and watch as their other significant others treat them like shit and all you can do is be a shoulder to cry on as they go in on whatever the latest asshole has done and you know you would never do something like that to them but they'll never know because they wont give you a chance.

Now sometimes there are cases where they wear down and realize that you might actually be the one. this is typically after you get a new boyfriend or girlfriend and they see how good of a partner you are and realize what they missed out on. Now do you let them suffer and stay with this new person or do you go with your hearts true desire? The amount of time and attention you also give them can also have a huge effect on their feelings for you. Its called beauty and the beast syndrome. Suddenly there's something there that wasn't there before. They start to see damn this is a good person and they have some real  feelings for me.

Now not every friend zone has a "brown sugar" ending where you end up together because they finally realize it was you all along. Sometimes they are firm in that friend status and you really don't have a chance. that's when you make a pimps decision and decide do you really want to stay and be their friend because you value them as a friend, leave because you only were in it for romantic purposes, or stay as a friend but pull back a bit because you dont want to get hurt. The best advice I can offer is let them know how you feel and see what happens. they may feel the same way and not have said anything you never know ;) After that you can determine what is best lover or friend?

Bubble Gum

You know how when you have a pack of gum that hasn't been opened yet and you're really excited because this gum is great. You just wanna enjoy your it for as long as possible. For some reason there's always that one person that ask for a piece So trying to be nice you let them have one little piece. You don't plan on giving anyone else any because this is YOUR gum. This is never the case. Once you give out one piece everyone suddenly wants some. Having gum is never a secret. You wanted to keep your gum for yourself, but once the pack is opened its lost its freshness. You can try to lie and hide it as much as possible, but people always want gum. There are some you share your gum with willingly because you want to and others who you deny because you don't want to give it away. One day you look up and all your gum is gone. You have to think who did I give all my gum away to because I didn't chew it all by myself. You can get a new pack of gum, but you will always think of all the times you have given gum away before and wonder no matter how hard you try will you give away all you gum again? You don't wanna hold onto it because then it will get all stale and useless, but you need to be selective when giving away your delicious gum. Unless you wanna regret it and have to try and start over with a fresh pack.

If you have not figured it out yet....this has been a sex post 

Internet Beef

Internet beef is described as a disagreement/ argument between at least two people over the Internet (Facebook, Twitter, or other social networks).

If I don’t care for you I won’t involve you in any aspect of my life, even if its accepting a friend request of following them on twitter. For some reason there are many people who don’t feel the same way. Too often am I seeing people arguing over the Internet. What’s the point? Why are you all friends? Why are you all following each other? (Especially if this is not the first time.)

Recently I witnessed a twitter fight. Someone I follow tweeted out something that seemed genuine and would benefit a group of people. While most of the responses were positive there were a couple of people who didn’t agree. Everyone is allowed an opinion but it should stay just that. A certain person, who I don’t follow because of her known arrogance and pettiness, had a problem. She not only disagreed with the idea but then went on to question the persons intentions. An small argument ensued and once it ended negative Nancy continued to complaining and subtweeting (talking about someone without mention that persons name). This same situation happens frequently on Facebook.

I wish people would realize this is pointless. Nothing is gained but a headache. Do you really need to be “friends” with and “follow” people you don’t care for just to end up in petty arguments? We are too old for this. There are much more important issues we face daily in the world to be bothered with things like arguing and bullying over the Internet. Grow and make a positive name for yourself because saying you have 1000 Facebook friends and 1250 followers isn’t what can be put on your resume or will be written in your obituary. Go find a hobby that can make you some money or better the world.

Love, Sex, and More Sex

A few years ago there seemed to be a shortage in real talent. Music didn't have the same feeling it once had. Theres was no excitement when an album was released. Today things seem to be changing and I am so excited for it.

Over the weekend I went to Trey Songz concert here in Chicago. Everyone who knows me, knows I LOVE Trey Songz! I was so excited when he announced his world tour for his latest album Chapter V. I already knew I would be there no matter who would be accompanying him. He later said that Elle Varner and Miguel would be joining the tour. While I was excited about Miguel, because frankly he scares me, but I was so excited that Elle Varner would be on the tour. 

I had first row seats, which gave me the full experience. FIrst up was Elle. She blew me away. Perfectly Imperfect is my favorite girly album. Its so emotional and real. She had a short set singing four songs along with a little Jay-Z tribute. She was amazing! Her voice is so powerful. I heard several people say that they were surprised by her talent and that they were going to buy her album later. Its so refreshing to see a young female singer who can really sing. She even smiled at me, probably because I was one of the only people who knew all the lyrics to each of the songs she performed but still it made me happy. I look forward to her having her own concert so I can see her perform all of my favorites.

Next was Miguel. I hate to admit this but he is a great entertainer. He was all about getting a reaction out of the crowd. He sang his  but off while also managing to pelvic thrust across the stage, freak the mic, dig in his pants, spit water up and over the crowd (luckily not me) and strip out of all his shirts. He was full of energy and I enjoyed it even though I didn't know a couple of the songs because I don't listen to him frequently.He also got directly in front of me, forcing I contact with him because I wasn't paying attention to him at some point. So while he is still a creep, he's an extremely talented one. (BTW his band is so sexy!)

Last but certainly not least was my boo. He sang all his hits and almost all of his new album. His performance was entertaining and emotional like always. The love and sex was oozing from both him and the audience. He loves his fans and you can really tell when he interacts with the audience. This was my fifth, maybe sixth, time seeing him concert and I felt that this time was a tad rushed. I'm not sure if it was because he had to act before him or because he didn't change outfits, only jackets, but I was expecting more. I hope that he goes back to his old way of performing so I can really enjoy it, but he still sang his heart out which is all that matters. 

I look forward to seeing all three again because I appreciate their craft and dedication to being real artists for our generation. I encourage everyone to go see at least one of these artists live. Theres nothing like actually going to a concert and experiencing it.

I'm hooked on you!

On December 3, 2010 I met Trey Songz for the first time after winning a Trey's Angels contest. After that day I was hooked. I've met him three more times since then. The latest time was over the weekend at the Chapter V World Tour concert. In most cases when you meet him its a very intimate moment. You and him in the room with an assistant. I walked in smiling at him. Before I could speak he said "How was your angel mission yesterday? I her you donated food." That's when I died inside and life became a blur. He knows me! The last time I saw him he looked as if he recognized me but thats it. This time it was obvious. The smile I had that night is still on my face, which reminds me of the first time we met. I'm an addict for him and I don't want to go to rehab. Can't wait for next time!

Listen to Gucci Mane Closely.

He says a lot of ignorant things but there are also those less ignorant quotables…

5. “You pathetic; I’m poetic.”

4. “Girls (or guys) are like buses, miss one, next fifteen, one comin”

3. “Sticks and stones will break my bones and bullets won't reflex off me, but words and insults only show da world how y'all respectin me”

2. “I'm my bestfriend and I'm my worst enemy. And no one else can hurt me unless I let them, is ya feelin me?”

1. “I learned that everybody is not you friend. You have to watch who you associate with and surround yourself with positive things and people who went to do something positive.”