You Live and You Learn.

I’ve never been good with timing. I think the main reason may be the fact that I do things on my time oppose to considering others who may be involved. A prime example would be when I decided to tell someone how I felt about them despite recognizing their situation at that time. I thought I was doing good but I didn’t get the response I wanted. In my mind it went like one of the final scene in Love & Basketball where Monica (Sanaa Lathan) told Quincy (Omar Epps) how she felt about him the night before he got married and he said “you still think the sun rises and sets on your ass. Well guess what, it doesn’t!” Although he didn’t say that, I was thinking it. I expected him to run to me and we trot off into the sunset. Instead I got the “You put me in a hard place. I really care for you but it’s hard for me to let go of my situation now.” *points trigger finger to me head*

For the first time EVER I was honest but didn’t consider everything. I don’t regret stepping out of my character and expressing myself but I do regret not considering what he was going through at the time. You live and you learn. It’s like ripping a Band-Aid off of your leg. It hurts at first but the irritation of it being on you is now gone.

Unfortunately its also not in my character to stick around and wait for someone to get there life together so yeah….at least I got it off my chest and it allowed me to look at my self and realize a flaw I possess. Everything happens for a reason so you should always find the bright side when things look gloomy.